learning

the Lord is showing me a lot about an attribute of his character through this: goodness. i feel all that i'm reading i see how the Lord has proven himself faithful. the psalms are coming alive as i read what david went through and feel that i can relate more than ever. the Lord is the Consolation, my Refuge, Protector. in reading his Word i see his consistency in this. I've never needed to cling to these truths than i have now. i've been asking why he has me going through this and i keep hearing him say that he is preparing me for something even harder in the future... not what i want to hear right now. i feel so burdened now, i can't imagine more. but i'm trusting Him and where he plans to use me after having this experience. it isn't His character to break his children and i see that in His hand sustaining me right now. i do feel burdened, but not abandoned. i'm treasuring the gift of his word to me and am so glad that i have it to read and hold on to.

i think i'm going to study some spanish and then read some more.